and kept the faith
the dream became reality
and quickly turned into a nightmare
I’ve never felt so alone as I do now
not even when I was alone
I wish I was alone again
at least then, I had hopes
I had a reason to smile
the anticipation of you
now I have nothing left
but a wish for the pain to end
and the thing is
I don’t blame you
I blame myself
because I was stupid enough to care
what the hell was I thinking?
What size is the last bed you kissed on?
It’s a full sized bed..
When was the last time you were sick?
Can’t remember really. It’s been a while. I’m almost always hurting and feeling some kind of way, but so far as actual sick, that doesn’t happen very often.
Are you one of those people who are always cold?
Nope, I’m always hot… lol
What are you listening to?
Listening to Vanilla Ice on the Windows Media Jukebox… lol
How many more days until your birthday?
Roughly nine months to go – it’s in July.
Do you have any summer plans yet?
Summer officially ended tonight – and no plans yet for next year.
When was the last time you shaved your legs?
It’s been a long, long, long time ago. I’m a man and don’t have to shave my legs.
Is there someone you wish you were closer with?
Do you tend to waste a lot of money?
Not really. My bills get paid first and after that, does it matter. Most of my extra money, when it exists, is spent on other people.
Have any addictions?
Pepsi, writing and the love of a certain guy. That one seems to be waning a bit though.
Are you anything like your siblings?
No, I don’t think so…
Have you ever had a stalker?
Yep – I remember her well… lol
What did you last drink?
Have you ever received an injury from a hook up?
Not from a hook-up, no. From long term situations though, that’s another story.
What did you last eat?
What was the best concert you have been to?
Surprisingly, it was Reba McEntire, along with John Michael Montgomery and Linda Davis. A great show. After that, it was Operation Rock & Roll featuring the great Alice Cooper.
Who is the last person you hugged?
The always huggable Roy Gee…
Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
When was the last time you had a crowd at your house?
Probably about a week or so ago. Five people is a crowd, right?
What can you smell?
A vanilla scented candle I have next to my computer.
How many cell phones have you had?
Not many – maybe 4? I’ve had the same one for almost 8 years now.
Which school year do you think will be the saddest?
No school for me, but if I remember correctly, it was the junior year (11th grade). Lots of drama and issues.
Do you have trust issues?
Absolutely. Everytime I trust someone, I get screwed over, lied to and hurt. That gets old after a while so better not to let the guard down anymore.
Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
Yeah, I probably am. They’ll be allight though.
Where do you get all your clothes?
Out of my dresser or my closet. Where else?
What did you do today ?
Volunteer work, opened bank account, worked, read, slept, watched TV, cleaned house, dishes and laundry, wrote for a while and played with the cat.
Do you have a YouTube account?
Of course – who doesn’t?
Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?
I don’t think so, but it’s possible. I have my secrets and skeletons, but I’m sure that I’ve probably confided in someone at some point about everything.
Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
Not the kissing parts. Maybe some of the stuff that came afterwards. But I like to kiss… lol
Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
There are a couple of folks capable of that.
Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
I’d rather sleep with someone but the person I want to sleep with doesn’t seem to feel the same way, damn it!
Will next friday be a good one?
Who knows? Have to wait and see.
When was the last time something bothered you?
Right now – got a lot of things on my mind, but I’m trying to be cool and deal with it all.
Do you think age matters in relationships?
Age is just a number.
Have you ever lived with a girlfriend/boyfriend?
When will your next kiss be?
Considering how things have been lately, it’s probably going to be a ways off. 😦
Who was the first male you talked to today?
That would be the roomie, Chris…
I used to do these things all the time back in the old MySpace days. As for now, I’m restless, bored and a little lonely so what the hell. Why not, for old times sake…
Random Survey Number One…
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4 and write the sentence here:
“He claimed one year he had been promised a Starsky and Hutch toy gun, a gift that never came.” – from the book “Heavier Than Heaven: A Biography of Kurt Cobain”.
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What’s there?
A window blind covering the living room window.
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
WWE Monday Night RAW
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
Around 1:30 am
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Vanilla Ice on the computer jukebox and the fan behind me blowing.
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
It was around 7:30pm – went uptown with my Ma to get some bread and go by my sister’s house.
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
I was working on a fiction story that I’m writing and looking at Facebook.
9. What are you wearing?
Black shorts covered in flowers and a black t-shirt with a silver and gold bear paw on the front.
10. Did you dream last night?
I don’t remember for sure, but probably did. I have weird dreams most every night.
11. When did you last laugh?
A couple of hours ago – I was watching Vines on the computer.
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A mirror and a couple of pictures.
13. Seen anything weird lately?
This is Laurinburg – I see something weird every time I step foot outside the house.
14. What song would you sing if you were on American Idol?
Right now, it would be either “Rainy Night In Georgia” – doing it Conway style or something by Dr. Hook.
15. What is the last film you saw?
The last movie I watched all the way through was Interview With A Vampire yesterday. I did watch a little bit of “Rent” earlier tonight though – just a couple of my favorite scenes.
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Homes for my family, an old VW Bug for myself and probably a small bar to run and work at.
17. Tell me something about you that I don’t know.
I have an unhealthy obsession with vampires and hate to wear colored socks.
18. If you could change one thing about the world, what would you change?
Try to find some way to bring people together instead of always fighting, hating, etc.
19. Do you like to dance?
I love to dance, but just not in public.
20. What do you think of the president?
He’s incompetent and a joke of a leader who has hurt and damaged our nation far more than all of his predecessors combined.
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Why would I want to live with a broad? I’m gay damn it! lol.
24. What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates?
I wish I knew what the hell to do
why do I let myself feel like this
why am I allowing myself to be the fool
when I know and see
i’m not dumb or blind
it’s not what I wanted
it’s not what it seems
it just another game in the arcade of life
feed it another quarter
play another round
and hope that you survive
So what do I do
exit the game early and leave
move to another game
or just keep playing and hope for the best?
I love you
you say you love me
but then again, you say the same thing to her
so who’s being lied to
who’s the gamemaster’s puppet?
And why do I continue to play?
I hate this life
I hate this bait and switch
I just want to be happy
but I also still want to be with you
too bad these things don’t seem to be compatible
I will always love you
But I don’t like you sometimes
So what happens next?
Someone give me another quarter
I think I’m going to go for the high score
Well, I was going to do a full “Tossing Salt” column, but my inner muse seems to have left the building. I made up a long list of topics to rant and rave about, but just can’t seem to find the motivation and energy to do the actual ranting and raving. What the… ??? So I’m just going to post the two parts that I did manage to complete and finish, which is the “Fact or Fiction” part and my predictions for tonight’s pay-per-view offering from the WWE, Night of Champions. Maybe after the pay-per-view tonight and RAW tomorrow, the voices inside my head will return and I’ll be able to stay focused long enough for a complete and whole column. Who knows? Anyhow, this is what I’ve got. Enjoy! And always remember, it’s your duty to shake your booty. Enjoy!
Night Of Champions Predictions…
WWE World Heavyweight champion Brock Lesnar with Paul Heyman vs. John Cena.
It would be a mistake, in my opinion, for the WWE to put the title back on Cena at this point. Cena doesn’t need the title and actually needs to be kept as far away from the title as possible. Let Brock keep the title and keep doing what it is he does. Then, when someone does finally defeat him and take away the title, it will mean just that much more. I think it’s going to be a slobberknocker of a match and Cena will put up one hell of a fight, but in the end, Brock hits the F-5 and retains.
Winner and STILL WWE World Champion: Brock Lesnar
Roman Reigns vs. Seth Rollins.
As we all know now, Roman will not be able to compete due to being in the hospital. So I guess that makes this one easy to predict.
Winner by Forfeit: Seth Rollins
Seth Rollins versus Dean Ambrose
I’m figuring that Rollins will come out to get his arm raised and win by forfeit. And just when he’s all cocky and celebrating, here come Dean Ambrose and we’ve got a match. Look for a wild and crazy brawl and in the end, it’s the so-called Titty Master, Dean Ambrose who will walk out with his arm raised in victory.
Winner: Dean Ambrose
Chris Jericho vs. Randy Orton.
It’s Jericho’s last night of his current WWE contract so it wouldn’t make any sense for Jericho to win the match. Randy wins with the RKO.
Winner: Randy Orton
WWE United States champion Sheamus vs. Cesaro.
Cesaro needs to get back on track with his career. Ever since his very brief stint as a Paul Heyman guy, he’s been losing as much as he wins and it’s really killing any momentum he made have built over the past year. Sheamus is the U.S. Champion, but he’s been more of an afterthought than anything else as of late too. Both men need the win, but I think Cesaro needs it more to get things swinging in the right direction again.
Winner and NEW United States Champion: Cesaro
WWE Intercontinental champion Dolph Ziggler vs. The Miz with Damien Sandow.
Dolph is on a roll and Miz seems to be on a roll himself, but he doesn’t need a title at this point. Dolph and Zack Ryder are taking over the JBL & Cole show and I think they (or at least Dolph) will take over this match as well. The era of Ziggler is upon us.
Winner and STILL Intercontintental Champion: Dolph Ziggler
WWE Divas champion Paige vs. Nikki Bella vs. AJ Lee
Paige and AJ counter each other and the cast member of the Total Divas show gets the title as a result. Sounds about right to me.
Winner: Nikki Bella
WWE Tag Team champions The Usos vs. Goldust & Stardust.
The Usos have been the champs for a while and have done a great job as the Champions, but it’s getting stale and time for a change. Time to stir up the dust, if you will. Look for some new champions as the Rhodes boys take that trip to the pay window and become the new WWE Tag Team Champions.
Winners and NEW WWE Tag Team Champions: Goldust and Stardust
Mark Henry vs. Rusev with Lana.
Somebody is gonna get their ass kicked and it’s going to be a solid match. Henry will dominate, but I don’t think Rusev is ready to start losing yet. Maybe we’ll see Zeb and Swagger get involved and Henry will become a new “Real American”. WE THE PEOPLE! Mark dominates, but Rusev ends up doing that sneaky evil foreigner thing and gets the pin and win.
Winner: Rusev w/ Lana
The Peep Show with Chris Jericho (Pre-Show)
No prediction here, but Christian is back. Let the peeps rejoice! Yay!!
And now, for your viewing pleasures, here is the Fact or Fiction thingy that I sometimes do…
Wrestling Fact Or Fiction….
1. You are excited for Sunday’s WWE Night of Champions PPV.
FACT: It looks as if it’s going to be a stacked card from top to bottom and even though I’d love to see Bray Wyatt, Bo Dallas and Heath Slater somewhere on the card, I won’t complain. Every match, with the possible exception of the Divas match, looks good on paper. I’m looking forward to this one.
2. Charlotte is the future of the WWE Women’s Division.
FICTION: I believe she is part of the future of the WWE Women’s Division, but it takes more than one or two good workers. It also takes good booking, good storylines and for someone in Creative or named McMahon to actually give a damn about the Division. Right now, it’s more or less an afterthought and until someone like Fit Finley takes over as Agent for the Divas again and when women who wrestle first and look great second is the rule and not the exception as it currently is now, the Diva’s division in the WWE will never be more than second rate and second class.
3. Taking the title off of Brock Lesnar at WWE Night of Champions would be one of the stupidest booking decisions the company could make.
FACT: Brock is the most credible and real beast currently on the WWE roster. Everyone else has been booked up and down so often, they look second rate in comparison, except for John Cena and I believe that the vast majority of wrestling fans, myself included, are all Cena’ed out. I don’t mind him being there and having his little feuds, but I don’t want to see him as the “Champ”. Been there and done that too many times. It’s time for some new blood at the top of the card.
4. Vince McMahon’s edict that John Cena be booked strongly so that fans do not look at him as a lost cause is the perfect example of everything wrong with WWE booking.
FACT: Sooner or later, Cena will not be able to be the top guy in the WWE and there is going to be major problems when that happens. Best to reduce his role, make him more human instead of super-human and use him to put over and build new talent. He doesn’t have to be a jobber and it’s best to keep him reasonably strong, but even Superman had weaknesses in kryptonite and magic. We need to see more of Cena’s “kryptonite” and let some other guys have that spotlight for a while. It would definitely be best for business.
5. Giving away Rollins vs. Reigns on Raw just days before the PPV was bad booking.
FACT: Unless they were planning on pulling a bait and switch routine on us Sunday night, it was pretty damn dumb. But then again, with the breaking news that Roman Reigns has been taken to the hospital for emergency surgery for a hernia problem, it might end up working out in the WWE’s favor. Now Rollins can claim that he put Roman out of action and demand the referee raise his hand in victory at the PPV, only to have Dean Ambrose return early from his movie making / “injury” and give us that match instead. So it looks as if it may work itself out, but having that match on RAW in the first place was a doofus move.
6. TNA not having any matches locked in place for the October 12th Bound For Glory PPV is a bad sign.
FACT: TNA is living on borrowed time at this point. It doesn’t seem that they have any real idea where they’re going or even who’s going to be around for the rest of the ride. I haven’t read the spoilers for the Impact! tapings as of yet so maybe they’re shaping things up, but that place just seems to be a ball of confusion right now and I’m kind of expecting that they’ll just end up throwing something together at the last minute to fill the card.
By the way, I forgot my disclaimer bit. The questions above that I used for the FoF come from my friends over at 411mania.com. The answers and responses come from me.
And I guess that’s all for the moment. Sorry it’s so short (reminds me of an ex-boyfriend), but it’s all I’ve got for now. I’ll talk at you fine peeps later.
I’m breathing on the outside
and I might even joke or smile
but make no mistake
He has murdered me
and I’m dead
Good thing zombies are the thing these days
Thank you Cal
for finally sending me to hell!